I don`t know you but ..,
I think we can become better friends . ♥
HELLO. If you hover over the words on the left.
You`ll never be able to see this again :)
I just wanna say, YOUR COOL ♥ .

Thursday, 18 August 2011 @ 00:01
about my post below..
thanks so much for being a friend.
Wednesday, 17 August 2011 @ 00:34
haven't done this in a while but ..
i miss hanging out with you, we used to talk a lot.
well maybe that was just me but we were close back then, kinda wondering what happened now.

not just you but others too.
thought we would get closer in the summer but i guess not,
now it's been a year since those days
wish you were back.

Wednesday, 13 July 2011 @ 22:58
don`t know where to start.. don`t wanna tell nobody too
just confused on what to do, act & say

I guess stress really gets to you when it builds up this high
never thought I would be the victim of my own game though
please just leave my life or make up your mind
because every time I see you I`m silently thinking, whats on your mind do I still cross your mind, probably not as much as I use to right ?
actually I'm the one to blame, I can't make up my own mind & I'm asking you to
just what the fuck am I thinking.
Sunday, 15 May 2011 @ 13:45
don't tell me what to do especially if your a hypocrite, acting like a good person when you actually hurt others too, eff off.
Friday, 6 May 2011 @ 22:19


was going through an emotional stage guys.
don't mind it.

Wednesday, 4 May 2011 @ 22:09
like no joke, I lied to you this morning sandy, I wasn't there for math in the morning because my self consciousness has been at the top lately. I didn't go to school till 2nd block cause I tried to find something that wouldn't make me look fat, but whatever I tried on, it made me look fat. I hate bryan and jacob .. calling me a fatass and fatty and saying shit like I eat every minute of the day, well hello smartass, if I was eating every minute of the day, you would've seen me eating when I was in the library that fucking day. Yeah I chose'd to ignore you guys cause I know it would make me feel like shit but really, it's kinda hard to when you ask me to jump, I don't say anything and you guys go like ' oh ahahahah you can't jump cause your too fat and you know you'll make a earthquake if you do' well fuck you -_-, you actually make an earthquake when you jump jacob. & you really have to stop acting so fucking cocky too bryan, because of you 2 fags, I stayed home worrying for almost an hour on what to wear. I swear I'm gonna turn anorexic soon cause of you guys -.- .

Sunday, 1 May 2011 @ 23:36
that thing inside of you
you know that voice thats always in your head that always assumes things that isn't true then you end up beating yourself up with thoughts that aren't true. I wish I could get past that voice and do my own thing, I don't need a fake person in my head to remind me what I'm doing right or wrong, everyone looks for compliments like ' good job' and actually mean it. But because of you, you always assume things like she doesn't like you cause your too quiet' when it could mean something totally different. & yeah, I know I'm fat and ugly, but you don't have to remind me every frickin day of my life, if I wanna get skinner or prettier, I would do it. You of all people should know that I hate to do something when I'm constantly being reminded to do it. I'm not that great of a person, not actually funny, nice, trustworthy and other shit. I have 3 different faces and each one is deeper then the other. One at school, one at home, and the other when I'm hiding in my room. The last one is my true self, the one that no one will ever find out, because I'm scared no one will like me and start to assume things. Peer pressure and lack of confidence really screws you up in life, especially when no one is there to help you up when you fall. Negative comments really do get to me, I just pretend like other people that it doesn't because I'm not ready to show my real self.

I don't even know what the fuck I'm writing, I just want someone who I can trust in this fake world. Do I actually have any friends?
I don't want 'friends' who doubt me, 2 face, back stab me. I just want someone who will understand and actually care about me.
I'm super self conscious, my outer appearance, personality, I just wanna make friends and to be loved. Is it that hard especially in a world like this?